Monday, May 2, 2011

I need to calm down.

I am freaking out, and I don't want to have a panic attack.

I can't find my scripts for my final scenes in my acting classes, which I don't have memorized at all. Why the fuck do I have two scenes, I can barely even handle some simple dialogue from the movie I was in. My first scene is on wednesday and we haven't even rehearsed the fucking scene. I haven't rehearsed either scene.

My friend has been getting on my case about me never going out with her but in all reality, we both need to save money. I've been ridiculously busy these last few weeks and she keeps saying oh god I have to pay people to be my friend because you never hang out with me and it's upsetting me a lot.

I can't go to class today because I have to study for a test tonight in a class I'm probably going to fail anyways.

My work is starting to annoy me.

And my boyfriend seems distant still and I want to punch him in the face instead of crawling into a ball and crying my eyes out cause he's leaving and I'm so busy with so many things. I just want may to be over so I can be free to do whatever the hell I want. then STILL I'm torn between hanging out with him and my other friends and I just hate being in this situation.

I hate stress. I hate drama. fuck.


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