Wednesday, December 29, 2010

if i were a wealthy girl

I would:

not have to work as much as I do, and therefore not be tired and not feel sick/drained, and not want to write in this.
I would also be able to spend all new years eve with my boyfriend.  :'(
But most importantly I would be able to buy these puppies without feeling guilty.

Hopefully after a couple more paychecks... ;(


These bandage skirts would be so much fun to wear clubbing, or at any party. I love them both so much, I would have to get both colors. Unfortunately they are completely sold out in my size! 

 This mini skirt is all kinda of sexy, plus the top ruffly tiers look as though they'd be good at covering unfortunate tummy bulge. ;) I love the print, this would look great against black tights.

I don't know what it is about this skirt that makes me like it so much. Maybe the office/librarian chicness of it, or the way it looks so flattering and drape-y. I think it looks adorable and I'd love to pair it with a nice cardigan and scarf.


I really love necklaces like this. If it were perfect, it would be a compass inside, but I love this design as well, plus cute jewelry that is also functional is the best in my opinion. This is so simple yet so elegant, it could be worn with most anything.

 One of the few dresses on the site that would fit me! It's always sad to see something cute and realize it isn't available in your size. However this cute dress is! I love the green color, and the material looks very pretty. It's like a doll's dress. A cute brown belt or tights would be nice with this.

I still need to review all the tights I bought.  :I  Between finals, work, and family issues, I've been completeeeeeeeeeeeely drained. Like, you need to pull over to the side of the road before you break down drained.

As for Christmas, I hope you all had a good one. My boyfriend got me the first season of GLEE which makes him the best person in the world. I also got a whole new luggage set! Hawaii here I come? I wish.

Here's to New Years! Don't get too wasted.


Monday, November 22, 2010




So on a website I frequent, I made a post about gijinkas (humanized animals, mainly pokemon) And someone made this: 
Of course, I had to make one myself.
"Being shiny is so uninspired."
<3 I can't wait for Pokemon B&W.
What is your favorite pokemon? Mine's Flaaffy.


Friday, November 19, 2010

she cried te amo


That movie is so ridiculously good. I could go on days for how much I loved it.
I went and saw the premiere with my BFF. We dressed up too! I'll add pictures later of those. But yeah. I will talk more about it later cause I kinda need to get to work.

However, since it was the last day of school before thanksgiving break and the HP5.i premiere, I decided to cross another thing off my bucket list:

I'm so mad my dads camera is making the pictures so small! I can't even upload these to chictopia, so that means I will have to take some again. That's okay, cause I didn't like any of the pics taken really.

But the item on my list was to go out not wearing any pants!
I guess I cheated cause I wore bloomers underneath but still...
It was really fun! I want to wear more tunics.  It was nice though. We were having presentations today and I wanted to dress up nice to make me feel more courageous. I don't know why but the first day we were supossed to do presentations, I had a panic attack :{

okay srsly gtg to work k.


Friday, November 12, 2010



Endomitriosis. If you have it, you know what I mean.
If you don't, consider yourself verrrry lucky.

So basically the cramping from my period has gotten so bad that I am puking (very painfully/violently) and I passed out for a while. All the while my mother insists the only thing I can do to alleviate this is take birth control pills, which I know I shouldn't do because I cannot remember to take pills to save my life, quite literally.
Of course this is complete bs but coming from someone who doesn't think I need bc in the first place I expect it.

Anways, gonna wrap this up because I feel really light headed again, but I got two of my packages. The brown tights and the socks and orange tights. They are all great quality and once I get all my packages I will do a big review.


Wednesday, November 10, 2010


oh man:

This is my favorite episode of Glee. I loved Beiste's role. High school is pretty vicious. I really like when Glee gets serious. But as always they make it humorous. Artie Puck bromance. So legit. I would love some more character development for Puck, maybe seeing his home life. Actually for all of the characters. And please please please let Artie and Brittany get back together. I think Brittany really did start to like him and I AM SO EXCITED FOR KURT AND BLAINE AGFDCB FDDDFV 

What's going to happen with the bully? AND SHUE BEISTE WHAT WHAT WHAT.

Confetti cannons

Why does itunes have all the songs up? I only see the teenage dream which was AWESOME yet so autotuned. :<
I remember hearing a preview of the songs and thinking that this episode was going to crash and burn butbutbut EVERYTHING CAME OUT SO PERFECT THIS IS AMAZING AGHHHHH.

Okay time to get dressed for class. :> What did you think of Glee?


Sunday, November 7, 2010



Messing around with the format of my blog. Just for fun.


And now

I will wait:

Hey! I feel like this is very hard for me to keep up with. Well not feel, know.
:< It's too bad I don't have anyone to take photographs of me at my will, or this would be updated almost every day.
I think I'll just have to take my camera with me all the time!

As for the title, I am waiting on PACKAGES~

I won a giveaway on the blog Down and Out Chic!
It was $50 for earringsnation on etsy. Her jewelry is so gorgeous! If I knew I wouldn't wear the necklaces, I would've redeemed one!
I got three rings and two sets or earrings though. I will try to get pictures when I can.

I also was treated to clothes by my parents! Almost everything was form the ELLE collection at Kohls. Fff. They are all so stylish and chic. I love it. Plus surprisingly, most of the clothes I got were smalls, I even sit into an extra small shirt! Kind of a confidence boost. B)

I will also take pictures when I get the chance.

Back to more PACKAGES~

I just bought a ton of items on eBay. I am getting 9 pairs of tights and socks for about 40 dollars. I figure that's a pretty good bargain, considering I just got tights for 6-7 dollars so if I were to pay like that It would be about 20 dollars more. 

I bought brown, orange, and purple striped tights, a set of 3 knee high socks, which I will redeem in maroon, black and brown, and another pair of black knee highs, and pink and white houndstooth print socks. :> I'm really excited about getting them.

Also I am debating going to UC Santa Cruz. We shall see.

Anyone reading this? roflwaffle. Tell me your last online purchase, and your favorite fall accessory.


Thursday, September 23, 2010

Four hours

to do nothing:

Hey! Just popping in.
Nothing really new going on in my life. I wish though! I would really like to try and make a dress for myself a la Marisa Lynch style. She's the owner of the blog New Dress A Day and basically she has 365 dollars to make a new dress each day. She uses thrifted garments and modifies them to be more trendy. It's really fascinating! 
OF course I also have a list of outfits I need to take pictures of for my chic blog. The last two times I had a chance the person never took pictures of me... Ugh. I don't know. Not going to get into it now.

Fall is here now. Unfortunately most of my warm wear options are hooded sweaters and that isn't really cute. :|
I need more coats/plain sweaters. Unfortunately this means I need money which i can't afford to spend right now because I have to pay a ticket for running a red light. :<
I have the ballsiest luck right now holy fuck. At least I have a job and can afford it eventually! I'm actually being given a lot more hours at my work right now so that is great. I really want to work on Halloween, it'd be pretty legit if we could kinda dress up for it. I'd maybe wear my Taiga wig and make matching tiger ears for it. I hope I can see Drew around Halloween. That'd be fun.

I don't know what else to say so I'll stop there.


Monday, September 13, 2010

teenage queen

all hail:

I am madly in love with this ensemble. From the cotton candy stripes to her starry heels. I wish I had a quarter of the fashion prowess this gorgeous gal has. Anyone could've thrown this on and went obvious glam, but Katy just took it to a whole, funky new level and I like it.

I would totally marry her if I had the chance.

see ya later. <3

Tuesday, September 7, 2010



Sacanime was okay. I was Kanra on Friday, Listen!! Yui on Saturday and Hinata on Sunday.

Spent a while there on Friday and Sunday, not so much on Saturday. Only like, 2 hours on saturday. I was late getting there and missed our whole K-ON group shoot. :<

Most of the pictures on my camera were from Kanra so:

Shizuko, Jailbait and moi.

Errday I'm hustlin'.

I spent the night at Drews the whole weekend. It was nice to have an open space and bed to sleep in by myself.

FFFFF. I realized after our small K-On photoshoot I'd left on my necklace. I will be shooping it out of each picture.
Also Gagain'.

Mio just playin some Guitar/Bass.

Yeah so Drew filled in to play with his brothers soccer team that morning. Started late, finished late. And I still had to finish my shirt womp.
I got a wicked fuckin' sunburn. Here's a picture of some sweet ass tan lines from my sandals:


So I went home to go see Drew because he got a NEW HAIRCUT for the military.
How handsome.

There was supposed to be a Naruto gathering on Sunday but it kinda failed. A lot of peopel actually called out to me and asked for photos though! It was awesome. B]

Doin' the Ferrah Flip.

Best part of the day: 
Starbucks you so cool.

I ended up staying until monday morning to go to a party with Drew and his friends. It got pretty crazy. Anyways, Drew is leaving this Friday to go to U of 
Oregon. It's very sad and it will be tough, but we have decided to stay together and stick through with it. 


Thursday, September 2, 2010



Possibly one of the best things ever, ever. I love all the club music on there. I found a bunch of K-ON! remixes and that makes me very happy. Right now I am searching Paramore mashups. I already have a bunch of songs downloaded from there. it's all free however some songs don't have download links or have reached their limit. :<
Either way, it is amazing.

I'm prepping now for SacAnime this weekend. All I need is to finish my Kanra jacket and my Yui shirts. I have a lot fo other things I need to get too. :< All my pay checks have gone into these. After this I will probably only make one more costume for Fanime next year.

On a more somber note, my boyfriend Drew is leaving to go to the University of Oregon next week. To think this might be the last time I ever see him really hurts. But hopefully we will stay together and at elast we'll save money on gas from driving to see each other so often? I'm just kinda numb on the subject. I don't want him to leave me.


Saturday, August 28, 2010


I am: 

feeling so much better since my last post thank god. Hopefully I will be getting some new clothes soon too! Hopefully I can find someone to take pictures of me in them though. :/
I'm worn at least 5 really cute outfits but I haven't been able to get someone to take pictures for me.

Anyways, I'm entering this giveaway!

Aww yeah.  


Tuesday, August 10, 2010

I hate myself.

I hate how fat I am. I hate it. You couldn't understand because you're skinny and always have been. I've had to fight for this. I lost 20 pounds for nothing. I'm still a huge whale cow monster. I hate you so much you don't even realize it. You're either my best friend or you're cold to me. You're so pretty and fun and you don't even see it. I resent you so much. I wish I were dead so I would never have to feel this way ever again.

God fuck everyone.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Next thing we're


My best friend Priscilla sent me this song and I'm so in love with it. It was featured in the movie Kick Ass, which I didn't see because I thought Hit Girl was a stupid character. But with a soundtrack like the one it has, I may over look it.

Also, her birthday is this saturday. Unfortunately, I will be on vacation with my boyfriend, Drew, during this weekend, and won't be able to share it with her. If Drew wasn't leaving to go to Oregon for college, I wouldn't go, but seeing as we've barely spent the summer together anyways... Ugh. i wish I could change a lot of different things I can't control.

Anyways. I got some new tights for my Yui costume!


A million and one times better than those other ones. I'm contemplating on whether I should remake the dress. We'll see on that. It looks fine, but it's quite short for what it should really bee. 

I also bought new wigs:  Rose 144 and Clover 2 from

Rose is going to be for my Taiga Aisaka cosplay, and Clover for my Kanra cosplay.

I'm excited, but I can't find a good jacket and belt for Kanra! it's frustrating me, since I only havea few more weeks for SacAnime. I haven't even started my Yui costume! Ugh. Theres a lot of things on my plate at the moment :C
I haven't really wanted to do anything lately. I've had a rough couple of weeks and my mood has been quite low, the lowest I can remember in a long while.I hope I don't need to restart therapy.


Thursday, July 29, 2010


It seems:

Like Hot Topic carries two things I need for cosplays; some boots, and a belt. However I'm going to see Drew tomorrow so I hope there's a mall near him. My coupon for half off an item only lasts until saturday when I work. :/

The boots are for Lucy Heartphilia, the belt for my Fem!Izaya/Kanra costume. 
I need to get paid again ;-;


Tuesday, July 27, 2010

I'm in a sloppy funk.

oh man:

I went to a party last night. It was good in the beginning, although way too crowded. I tried a cigarette, didn't like. I tried a hit of pot, didn't like. I'm just glad I at least tried it, because now I know I don't have to waste money on either, instead of buying a whole bit of one or the other and wasting it. So I slept today away. My camisole and vest is still at the party place. My friend suggested taking chictopia pics of our outfits but when I did hers she didn't reciprocate. It's whatever I guess.

Now to go find food and drink.


Saturday, July 24, 2010



I got an outfit in there eeeeeeee. >w<
I am so happy.

On to something.
I am in love with high waisted things.  I would really like a pair of high waisted swim bottoms!

Modcloth has some lovely ones, but they are way too expensive. American Apperal has some cheaper ones but I'm afraid they won't have my size. I basically want to cover up my fat hahaha.

I have a pair of high waisted lei shorts. And my pencil skirt. ugggh. I want low rise to die forever. I'm sick of having muffin top. 

viva la curves.


Tuesday, July 20, 2010



Oh hot damn this is an amazing picture taken of my friend Anthony and me during Fanime 2010. <3333
NaruHina yeah.

Good  pictures of me are my most favorite ever. ♥

Okay well anyways

see ya later.

Saturday, July 17, 2010


I'm so:

Tired of trying to remember how to format my posts. And not having anyone to take pictures of my outfits. And not wanting to draw. Ever since the zombie walk I feel well, like a zombie. Very depressed. I hate how I was doing so good and now it is all poop. :{

I need to lose at least 30 more pounds. I've already lost around 20. I can do this.

I wish my boyfriend would want a future with me.


Tuesday, July 13, 2010


Oh Dear:

I have not posted on here/chictopia in a long time. But this will soon change! Because not only am I posting here right now, but i bought two fabulous dresses from Wet Seal yesterday which I will style and find out how to do pictures with. I also have some designs I will post up here soon enough. In the meantime, please enjoy this line:

A cocaine airplane through crystallized skies.

see ya later.

Monday, June 21, 2010

ho hum

I am:

Upset. I have not been having a good last couple days. 
Let's just say I'm having an Edward-Bella-Jacob moment.

and it sucks

see ya later.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Costume Play



 Rock Star.

Cosplay = costume play.
You dress up as the characters and have fun plain and simple.
Some people go so far as to acting like that characters which can be annoying/awesome, depending on how it's done.

I have a lot of characters I'd like to be some day
Here's a few:

Meiko Akizuki from Marmalade Boy

Skitty humanoid/gijinka from Poke'mon

Maron Kusakabe from Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne

Keiko Yukimura from Yu Yu Hakusho

Lucy Heartphilia from Fairy Tail

Yui Hirasawa from K-ON!! 2nd ED


It's liberating. Plus it's the most fun ever to have someone ask to take your picture at conventions.
I don't ever know if I'll be able to do most/any of these. :(
hopefully I can. Well,

 see ya later.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

And Meet Alice

Say Hello:

This is Alice. She's my baby.

She likes to pounce on things from the couch.

She has pawmarks.

Sometimes she's kinda a bitch.

Other times she's curious.

But most of the times she just likes to eat.

see ya later.

Meet Virginia

Spur of the moment design:
A pink romper with the relaxed sleeve style, and a nice leather belt, perhaps woven around the hips. Satchel like leather purse and brown leather lace up boots.
I wasn't sure if I wanted to add a head accessory because that made it seem more hippie than the feel I wanted. I don't even know what I wanted it to seem as. Maybe that's the point. It doesn't need to fit into a certain style to look good. I don't know what kind of fabric the romper would be. Cotton probably. And it flares inward a bit at the bottom of the shorts. Someday I'd like to see one of my designs made/worn.

And it would obviously have pockets on the romper. God knows we need them.
What do you think?

see ya later.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Prepare yourself.


cats, obviously,
fashion designs,

See ya later.