I'm shutting down my facebook tonight because it's distracting me and because I can't not go on it without staring obsessively at my ex's page wishing and begging for him to stop being a coward.
I have to make a gown tonight/tomorrow night. I got the wrong size of pattern yesterday. my fucking luck.
I also forgot bridal snaps/ hooks like you see on bras.I'm so scared it'll look bad/be ugly/I'll be ugly. I just want that stupid idiot back. I haven't even told my parents I'm leaving for a week either. I don't know how to bring it up. I'm the coward. I'm afraid of people. horrified of people. But I'm not horrified of love.
god i am just a fucking weirdo.
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