Friday, May 27, 2011

nerding out

"…because nerds like us are allowed to be unironically enthusiastic about stuff… Nerds are allowed to love stuff, like jump-up-and-down-in-the-chair-can’t-control-yourself love it. Hank, when people call people nerds, mostly what they’re saying is ‘you like stuff.’ Which is just not a good insult at all. Like, ‘you are too enthusiastic about the miracle of human consciousness’."
John Green

Fanime. Today.


Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

there are shoes in my freezer

So ever since Flattery first wore these shoes I've wanted them really, really badly. wedges are adorable and cork wedges are even more adorable SO I worked with one of my friends in Canada to get them shipped to me and HERE THEY ARE YAAAAAAY.



Unfortunately when I tried to get them on though, they were really tight. :C I misread the sizes on the website. I'm trying to stretch them though with water bags/freezing them. We'll see how that works. They are so much fun to walk in though, and they looked really cute on so I just hope I can stretch them out a little bit!

Pick your favorite thing in my freezer.

That's all for now. Time to do math for my final tommorrow.


Monday, May 23, 2011

maybe i would've been something you'd be good at

Dress Progress

So I'm making a dress for one of my Fanime costumes. I ended up changing them from before. This is for Rotten Girl Grotesque Romance vers. Miku. Here's the song:

Here's the pattern I have:
I'm debating whether to do sleeves or not.

Here's my fabric:

Done with cutting the pattern!

will update as necessary.


Sunday, May 22, 2011



logged off.

I'm shutting down my facebook tonight because it's distracting me and because I can't not go on it without staring obsessively at my ex's page wishing and begging for him to stop being a coward.

I have to make a gown tonight/tomorrow night. I got the wrong size of pattern yesterday. my fucking luck.

I also forgot bridal snaps/ hooks like you see on bras.I'm so scared it'll look bad/be ugly/I'll be ugly. I just want that stupid idiot back. I haven't even told my parents I'm leaving for a week either. I don't know how to bring it up. I'm the coward. I'm afraid of people. horrified of people. But I'm not horrified of love.

god i am just a fucking weirdo.
I updated this post.


Thursday, May 19, 2011

i know this feeling oh so

Only lesbians listen to Tegan and Sara


Tuesday, May 17, 2011

40 minutes until work.

Last night I had a dream about my other ex. Basically he texted me something and then a few minutes later he came up to my window in his car ( my room was right by the street I suppose) and was all hey. And I was very very confused and I said "oh hey, what are you doing here?" Then he just, started crying. Really crying. Saying that I guess I was too good for him now and I was too busy seeing my other boyfriend. So I tried to calm him down and I told him I was single and I asked if he was still with Julia and he said no. So I was all FUCK my parents are going to flip if they see him here so I snuck him inside and went to scout to see where my parents were. He ended up following me and my mom saw him. But surprisingly she was cool and was all hey hows it going nonsense. That's when I noticed how slumped and defeated and jsut plain depressed my ex looked.  Some other shit happened and there was Beatles music and then he was playing something on tv with my dad which was like whoa my dad for sure hates you but.

I felt like it was me. We switched bodies or something. He looked so broken. I just don't even know. I'll have to see him this summer at least once to get my sandals/Ho-Oh back and give him back things. I talked to my recent ex last night, trying to get him to just fucking treat me like a person and not a disease again. I went to bed feeling even more miserable and wanting him than ever. I feel like he was kinda a rebound for other ex, but then when I liked him so much more and got left behind, I got left over with the feelings of both break ups and it was amplified times 2 or something. The harder you try to get over someone the more you want them. I just wish someone would treat me like a princess again. okay shower time.


Sunday, May 15, 2011

I know this isn't tumblr but,

I need a place to store the ones that relate to me, I need to remember, let people know.

I know this isn't tumblr but, part 2

Continuation of my personal stash of brotips, via