Friday, April 22, 2011

i'm just a holy fool









Hat - Kohl's
Shirt - Boyfriend
Shorts - Forever 21
Boots - Wet Seal
Dogtag - Boyfriend
Necklace - Aldo

Outdoor photos courtesy of the beau.

seeyalater.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

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This wasn't supposed to hurt me.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Will update as seen fit.

last update - 6-9-11
new

Bottom to top.

Worry About You - 2AM Club
If you're Wondering If I Want You To (I Want You To) - Weezer
Jesus Stole My Girlfriend - Violent Soho
White Houses - Vanessa Carlton
We Walk - Ting Tings
Feel It In my Bones - Tiesto feat. Tegan and Sara
Never Let You Go - Third Eye Blind
How's It Going To Be - Third Eye Blind
Nineteen - Tegan and Sara
Back In Your Head - Tegan and Sara
Alligator - Tegan and Sara
Call It Off - Tegan and Sara
Tell Me Why - Taylor Swift
Dirty Picture - Taio Cruz Featuring Ke$ha
Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer
Start Again  - Sam Tsui
Beast Of Burden - The Rolling Stones
Arabesque (Lykke Li Remix) - Robbie Z-S
Be My Escape - Relient K
Super Bass - Nicki Minaj
Hourglass - Mindy Gledhill
Gone In September - Mike Posner
Please Don't Go - Mike Posner
It's You - Michelle Branch
Never Gonna Leave This Bed - Maroon 5
Starstrukk - Marina and The Diamonds
Heart Skips A Beat - Lenka
Judas - Lady Gaga
Cannibal - Ke$ha
Mannequin - Katy Perry
Not Like The Movies - Katy Perry
Firework - Katy Perry
Teenage Dream - Katy Perry
Stitching Leggings - Kate Nash
I Hate Seagulls - Kate Nash
Nicest Thing - Kate Nash
Skeleton Song - Kate Nash
Birds  - Kate Nash
If You Don't Wanna Love Me - James Morrison
You Give Me Something - James Morrison
God Save The Foolish Kings  - House of Heroes
Prove You Wrong - He Is We
Happily Ever After - He Is We
Cupids Chokehold - Gym Class Heroes
So I Thought - Flyleaf
Kiss With A Fish - Florence and The Machine
Howl - Florence and The Machine
Swan Song - A Fine Frenzy
Happier - A Fine Frenzy
Rocketeer - Far East Movement
Don't Look Now - Far East Movement fearturing Keri Hilson
Here Comes The Rain Again - Eurythmics
I Do - Colbie Callait
Miley Cyrus Medley - Christina Grimmie/Kurt Schneider
I Want You To Want Me - Cheap Trick
Bass Down Low (Proper Villians Remix) - The Cataracts/Dev
She Doesn't Mean A Thing - Casey Shea
The Lazy Song - Bruno Mars
First Date - blink 182
I Miss You - blink 182
Just Can't Get Enough - The Black Eyed Peas
My Love - The Bird And The Bees
Don't You Want Me  - Atomic Tom
Chick Habit - April March
Jamba Juice Love Song - Alex Hobbs
Love Song  - Adele
Lunchlady Land - Adam Sandler

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

Why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Jury Duty

I was summoned for jury duty today but I was excused from being used. I was really nervous/scared. I don't think I'm ready for being on a jury yet. Much more living and learning to do for me. I didn't get my paycheck today! I was actually supposed to get it yesterday. :[   I'm gonna go check on it when I stop by work.

I really like these two songs:





seeyalater.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Cover Me

I've been listening to cover songs on the Billboard youtube channel all morning. I love cover songs, it's a fun way to pay tribute and create a new meaning for songs, which I am all about.



I remember listening to her song I Am Not A Robot when she was an itunes discovery download. She has a very nice voice. And I love her outfit! Socks and heels yeaaaah.




That guitar/bass is so sexy. .-.




This is my favorite of the ones I will be posting; Marina is a close second.  I just love the tribal/indigenous feel Flo has to her songs. Plus I loved to sing this song when I was younger.  Florence is undeniably a powerhouse of talent. I'm in lesbians with her.




Her voice is soulful and sassy without the crazy dance beat. I love her voice! It's so clear.




This song reminds me of my childhood. My mom listens to country, and I grew up on it. Shania is an excellent song writer, and Charice's sweet voice adds a younger innocence and honesty to it.

Enjoy the songs!

seeyalater.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Lately I realized how I have not been saying thank you enough when people do something for me. It's really embarrassing. I used to be so withdrawn, reserved, and quiet and now that I am being more self confident and upbeat I'm scared I'm turning into a douche. But I am always grateful and thankful for all the people in my life, so here's all the thanks I need to give out.


First I would like to thank all of my family. They have been so supportive and kind to me when I pushed them away. I love all of you, even though you may never see this. I regret this, because I feel like I could use your support still now, but I pushed you all away too much and I don't deserve it.

I would also like to thank all my wonderful friends, new and old. I have been truly blessed to have been able to share precious moments with all the people I've met. I only wish to be a better friend to you all. More specifically out of my friends, I'd like to thank everyone from the cast and crew of Human Root. This has been one of the most wonderfully exciting and fun things I have ever done. I wish that filming would never end so that I could keep seeing everyone all the time. I am deeply grateful for all your kindness and the fun times we have had on set and at base. Here's to more!

I am also grateful for Mrs. Woo, my first grade teacher, and all the little kids in her class. I feel so horrible that I have not been able to come by and see you all. I also feel so guilty for not writing a thank you note for those lovely earrings the class got me for Christmas. I wish I had more time to see you all and volunteer. To be honest if I really tried, I could make time, and that's what makes me feel the worst.

I'm eternally thankful to God for letting me live.

I'm thankful for my goofball of a boyfriend. I finally found a good one. Gentleman, hellraiser, patient, loving, and a huge ball of sunshine. I hope in the remaining days we share I make you the happiest.

I'm also thankful for all of my friends online in LSG and HaHa. I hate that I keep losing those god damn letters hahaha. I promise I will get them out someday soon! Thank you for all your support. I really do appreciate you all.

Finally, I'm thankful for all of you readers. Even if you aren't a follower, and just happen upon this post, thank you very much.


seeyoulater.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

I feel so Audrey Hepburn right now.




Decided to trim my Bieber cut. I miss it ridiculously. Also my bangs look funny. :<

We'll let it grow out though. I just came back from having dinner at my boyfriends restaurant. It was really really good, and like a freaking dork he sent me a bowl of ice cream from the kitchen. Aggggh I'm so ridiculously lucky to have this fool. Tomorrow I go back to school UGH I wish spring break was this week. Well at least Nick and I have the same week off. Fun fun fun fun. I'm gonna have to go insane making my costumes next week though. And I also have filming this friday eeeee. I'm so excited for my birthday.

People have been asking me what I want. I can only really think of a few things. Money/giftcards, Tangled on DVD, getting my teeth whitened, or a long board.  I really want to learn how to long board. I think it'd be fun! I won't be wearing heels as much though. Okay, I should clean my room now.


seeyalater.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

wubwubwubwub




 My boyfriend said I reminded him of this song. I never really cared for dubstep, because I hate dancing to it at clubs. I'm starting to enjoy it as just for listening though lately. I went to The Crib in SF on Thursday. I danced in the GoGo cages and was in a Britney Spears danceoff but I lost. Oh well. I had hella fun, and that's all that matters.



I wish I could do makeup like my friend. She's pretty fuckin' boss at it. I don't have any good eye shadow palettes though. I kinda want a coastal scents palette. Agh birthday decisions. My birthday is in one week exactly. I want to get my teeth whitened for my birthday. And I want lots of makeup. Anyways, I need to go feast. I'm starving.


seeyalater.

Monday, April 4, 2011

take a bite of my heart tonight

Hi Jaime.
I have a pretty fucking awesome boyfriend. I'm so happy for spring too because MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP YEAAAH.




Blouse: thrifted
Shorts: Old Navy
Shoes: Stolen from my Mom
Headband: Icings
Necklace: Aldo
Dogtag: Jacked from Boyfriend

seeyalater.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Sometimes I wish I was like Mariella

My pretty baby girl.



seeyalater.

im so scared


That I think I'm falling.

Monday, March 21, 2011

don't you dare let me start to do that

my poor abandoned blog.



Dress: Wet Seal
Skirt: Kohls Elle collection
Tights: eBay
Heels: Kohls xhiliration
Necklace: Aldo



seeyalater.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Rooters4Life

So we got done filming half of the movie/film/other synonym I was in this weekend. The crew was amazing. Everyone was so nice and fun. I loved all of the personalities I met. Also singing KeyDollarSignHah after scenes. Best cast and crew forever.

So much fun. I can't wait to continue shooting. I'm totally drained though, not ready for my classes tonight.

seeyalater.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

busy as fuck.

Working 8 hours shifts today and tomorrow, trying to cram lines of dialogue into my brain, doing all my homework, dealing with the thoughts and memories and shitty friends, trying to become normal again. I will be filming all saturday and sunday, with some extra scenes later next month. I have a math test on monday, and I'm really far behind on homework. I've been waking up around 5-6 am these last few days and can't fall back to sleep. I need to return a tunic I bought before it's too late. I need to buy heels I can run in without looking like an injured duck. I need to get false numbers NAILS wow see how much math is controlling my thoughts?
I want to party. I want to go clubbing/dancing.
I want my math class to be canceled on monday.

seeyoulater.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I was doing so good.


I feel like I could throw up, but I'm not so lucky.

seeyalater.

I got a part in a student film!

http://humanrootmovie.webs.com/index.htm

My friend is the director. I'm really excited for it!
I got the role of Nadine.
I get to sledgehammer a guys leg. B)

I'll let you know how it goes.

seeyalater.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

don't look now

NEW HAIR NEW HAIR NEW HAIR









uguuuuuuuu~


seeyalater.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

I just got dumped

Last night.
Over text.


:(

seeyalater.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Somewhere that's green

First here's my newest favorite song:
Japanese
English Cover

Enjoy!


So my friend likes to sometimes post about interior design aspects she likes. I thought I would post some things I'd want in my own home someday.

from stylehive.com

Hammocks. It would be so relaxing to sit in a hammock indoors (or out) and read or listen to music. Especially in a nice open room. Perhaps some potted plants around to give it a nice naturalistic feel. My family has an old rinky hammock that's been weathered from well, weather. I loved to use it, especially in the sunny summer days where I can be lazy. If I did have a hammock in my house, I would also want:

from fakro.co.uk

A window on the roof. I think they're really cute, plus they bring in a lot of light more so than normal wall windows I think. Plus I would want a way to get on the roof, because I definitely want a flat part to my roof to sunbathe/chillax/danceparty on. 



from dalidecals.wordpress.com

I would love to put up decals/deisgns all throughout my house. I'm really inspired by colormekatie.blogspot.com All the cute little projects she does make me want to do something nice too. She does a lot of cutsey projects. I especially love this one. Maybe I'm biased because I've never really been in real snow, but I think this would be cute to surprise that special someone with.

So far that's all I've got. 

seeyalater.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Class in 40 minutes.

I slept maybe 2 hours this monring, then worked for 7 hours. Now I have class from 6 to 9. Fuckkkk.

So that Simca costume wouldn't fit me, but it's alright since the colors on it were wrong and I could make the dress for a LOOOOT cheaper but the girl had an awesome hat and goggles which I really wanted :[
But Utennaaaaa I'm so excited for that costume.



I can never spell the word 'supposed' right. I do double s's instead of double p's. I'm gonna be drawing a lot more, hopefully. I really want to go clubbing again. I've been listening to straight BPM radio on Sirius XM. It just feels so good to listen to it.

seeyalater.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Rollerblading and art.

So I decided to buy a costume I've always wanted: Simca from Air Gear.
 
Basically she's a bad ass. Rollerblades and starts shit and doesn't give a fuck.

This also means I have to learn how to roller blade too though. :{ I can do it if I believe~

Also, I drew my first piece of art since finding my tablet pen:



Fionna and Cake, the canon genderbent versions of Finn and Jake of the cartoon Adventure Time.
THEY'RE SO CUTE ASDFG.

Too excited for my costume to get here.

seeyalater.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Fanime!

I decided I will go! Screw everything else, I want to have fun!

I have a room to stay in already, plus my pass for the days. I've already asked for it off for work so I think I'll be good to go.

For my costumes, I will be taking my Hinata costume and maaaybe my Yui costume. I need to get contacts for Hinata, and I need to get proper shoes and remake the hairpiece for Yui.

For some NEW costumes, I am considering making Utenas duelist outfit from Revolutionary Girl Utena/Shoujo Kakumei Utena.



Utena has always been one of my favorite characters. I love her strength, wit, and charm. I've always wanted to cosplay her! I hope I can do her justice.




If there ever was an anime character I had to choose for a twin, it'd be Lucy Heartphilia from Fairy Tail. She loves books and writes herself, as I do. She also uses astrological signs for her 'fighters', and I love astrology. In love with being in love and her attitude in general is so like me it's crazy. I'm so excited to cosplay her.


Both these two characters I want to do absolutely perfect. I'm already looking into getting Utena's rapier commissioned, and I know a good seller for Lucy's set of keys. 

fffff so much money but it's all worth it.

seeyalater.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

(2 years.)

Today marks two years ago when I accidentally forced my (now) boyfriend to ask me out. It was actually the first day I met him as well! So much has happened since then, we even both look completely different (him cutting his hair, me with my style). Unfortunately he is in Oregon taking his midterm right now and he can't get Dead Space 2. Haha. I will be going up to see him for Valentines weekend though. Very very excited for that( AND DOUGHNUTS).

I invented my own signature smoothie today at work too! Oh damn this is so good. It's peach juice, low calorie dairy base, strawberries and peaches. I call it Peachy Keen! It tastes like peach yogurt, the low cal base makes it nice and creamy. I'm so happy I finally have my own concoction. :3

I have creative writing class tonight. Debating on whether or not I should go visit my old creative writing teacher/mentor at my high school today. We'll see. Well I'm gonna go chill.


Seeyalater.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Catching up on movies

So I finally watched Paranormal Activity and Toy Story 3.

Unfortunately I made the mistake of watching P.A. at 10 pm, which scared me so much even Cha Cha could not cheer me up. I eventually fell asleep, and decided to watch Toy Story 3, which made me bawl my eyes out. Two very different emotions in the time span of 12 hours.

The reason I got to watch these movies is because I got a free one month trial of netflix. I hope that my mom will continue to buy it for me, because I honestly don't want to pay for it. I mean, it's not like I normally spend a lot of money on other things, I just feel like if the whole family is enjoying it I shouldn't have to pay it all. As selfish as that seems, I don't really care.

I am disappointed in the lack of free things I can watch on demand. For a company that wants to steer people away from using the DVDs, they sure aren't giving much of a selection to watch online. :/

Oh well, free movies are free movies. I watched all 5 seasons of Weeds (season 6 wasn't available for instant watch ) plus those two movies and The Princess and The Frog.  Debating whether or not to watch Human Centipede. I'll let you know.


seeyalater.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

I hate missing 11:11.

:|


Anyways, hello again! I'm currently buying my amtrak ticket to visit my boyfriend in Oregon. He goes to Uni. of Oregon and his apartment is in the best location ever. Close to VOODOO DOUGHNUTS the coolest fuckin' doughnut shop you will ever go to. Take a look at the menu! I have been waiting for the day I get to go have one of their deliciously quirky doughnuts for about a year now since I first heard of it through a friend. Not only that but I get my Ho-Oh back from him that he hijacked so long ago. I'm just most excited to see him. We were already long distance to begin with but we could still see each other once a week, now we have to wait weeks/months.

I also got my debit card rejected for the first time. It just recently put on a bunch of charges I already thought it had. It was really embarrassing, but at least it was at work where I am loved and adored. ;-;

I need to find a tripod, or even a good place to take pictures of my outfits. I miss taking them. I figure I've starved for long enough. Time for toast.

seeyalater.

Back to School

I just had my first classes of the new semester yesterday. I'm taking Performance for Cameras, Intermediate Math, Intro. To Govt. and Politics, and Creative Writing.

I had my acting and math classes yesterday. I'm really nervous for my math class, just because math has never been my strength, plus the class seems so demanding. But I will push through it as hard as I can. My acting class is cool. There's a lot of strong personalities in there but that's obviously because of the competitive nature of the game. I hope I don't get annoyed with anyone.

For picking out my classes late I got a pretty sweet schedule. I have only three days of class, Monday three classes (acting, math and politicalsci.) Tuesday is Creative Writing, and Wednesday is Math and acting again. My earliest class doesn't even start until 11. Yup, I think I can do this.

I really have to decide on a major though. I wish I had someone to help guide me. Lol, perhaps a guidance counselor?

Hope you have a good day!

seeyalater.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Review: Clinique Chubby Stick Moisturizing Lip Colour Balm

Damn that's a mouthful.



So I saw this ad in Seventeen magazine for for their new moisturizing lip color, and I wanted to try it out. I originally wanted to get the Woppin' Watermelon cause I wanted all the boys to have crushes but it was already out of stock. :{
I ordered the Chunky Cherry instead from their website, along with a few other things I won't review.

Here are some pictures:

My lips before, sorry for the herp derp faces, but it wouldn't pick up the actual color of my lips when I smiled.




This is the package it came in:
Here's the actual stick:

Looks just like the ad!

In action!:




It feels very nice going on, just like a balm should. I put it on this morning for work, and it was gone after 8.5 hours, but I tried to lick it all off and the color dulled a bit but stayed still pretty well. However when I wiped it off with toilet paper, it came off pretty easy. But it doesn't leave any weird coloring around the lips, or on the lips.

It is very lightweight, and soft. It took about, 3 coats on the bottom lip, and detailing it in on the top lip to make it that color above. It really depends on how you like it, as it looks good as a sheer one coat as well.

However, the first time I tried it on, my lips were really dry, and it showed the cracking a bit, so I suggest not trying to use it as a fix for cracked lips.

So far I'm really satisfied with it. :)
Let me know if you decide to get one!

seeyalater.

Friday, January 14, 2011

Goodbye.

It's always the hardest thing to say.


seeyalater.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Why won't you just

say it?:

So a very good friend of mine wrote/stole from Reddit this and it is not only hilarious (and really crude!) but ridiculously true
Context: Someone was talking about a girl who said that he'd be her friend no matter what, and they took it as being friendzoned.

"
Oh how adorable. It's a confused little boy in its natural habitat.

FUCK THAT.

You are the product of generation upon generation of men who built empires with their bare hands and killed shit like sabertoothed tigers and wooly mammoths with rocks tied to sticks. Don't be afraid to tell a girl that you want more from her.

Boo fucking hoo. She might not want that. If you don't change this fucking shit, you'll be back here in 10 years complaining about how the girl at the office might or might not like you and help what do you do if you ask her out what will happen when she comes back and see your huge collection of power ranger toys.

Now, I'm not a doctor but I'm prescribing you 500mgs of be a fucking man. Tell the bitch you want to go on a date. If you're rejected, look that bird dead in the eye and say to her, "My ancestors ate moose with their fists," then turn your ass around and walk away. Don't sulk, you're going to walk about like this happy son of a bitch. You better fucking ooze testosterone on the ground and declare yourself a catch, because if you don't I'll follow you around from comment to comment posting crudely drawn pictures of you in a tutu having your sissy baby legs broken by a monster made of the dicks that are gonna fuck the girl your too chicken shit to ask out."
-My Hero 
I hate when people just give up, or whine and pine over their romantic interest without doing anything about it. How do you expect anything to happen if you don't try and let them know you like them! Way to fail peers.

He has a blog right here: http://a.loysi.us/  ♥♥♥

seeyalater.

Monday, January 10, 2011

I hate books

and yet I love them:



Books are like different portals for me. Every one I read I tried to get sucked into. To feel the emotions of the narrators, to believe the setting.They are fantasies for when my imagination runs dry. They are places to be when I don't want to be here.

I just finished Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater. I cried, and I want to cry more. I won't spoil it for my zero readers but the premise is so real for me. This is going to sound like the dumbest thing ever, but I always identified my boyfriend as a wolf, if I had to somehow shallowly place in in the category vs vamps. So whenever I read this book, I thought of us. How hard it is to be apart from the one you love. Not really ever knowing whats going on, if they're okay. Distanced.

It breaks my heart each and every day to be apart from him. To have someone so imperfectly wonderful and someone who when you first saw and met them you felt a gear click in your head. Everything was in place.  Even through the fights and misunderstandings, I love him. More than anyone I could ever think of. I could only love my own children as much. But there's also another kind of distance between us. He's not sure if he wants the same. The fact the distance could be broken because there would be no more us. Only him and only I. How is it so that the one you love so much, and the love is so rational and pure, that there just isn't the same feeling. No matter what I say or do he just doesn't feel the same. Not to say that he isn't a good boyfriend, or that he doesn't love him. I just wish I could close the gaps. I hate this so much. I just want to see him, and hold his hand, and smell him in the room. I want to listen to him play guitar, and watch him play video games, and cook for him, and yell at him, and nuzzle into his neck. I just want to stop being apart, on both levels.

I don't know what else I can say.

seeyoulater.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

happy days are

here again:

So my yesterday was completely horrible. With a little retail therapy though and making some new resolutions, I am already feeling a lot better.

School starts next wednesday but IT WONT LET ME ADD MORE CLASSES TO MY SCHEDULE. It says I have the max number of hours but I'm only taking ONE CLASS, for ONE DAY. :|
Jesus. I guess I'll just have to schedule a counseling appointment but when I tried online they were all for February. I can't wait that long! Hopefully everything goes well though.

I bought over $100 worth of things today hahaha...
I bought some skin care things and a lip pencil, and I also bought a 4 new books! Paper Towns and Looking For Alaska by John Green, Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green and David Leviathon, and Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins. I need some new books and I loooove John Green (and his brother Hanks's) vlog on youtube. I've been reading Shiver by Maggie Steifvater. If i had to describe it, it would be if Twilight was only about wolves, no vampires. It's a nice read, I get into books easily and I literally got lost in this book a few times. The male lead is a bit sue if you ask me though, OH WEREWOLF? OH GENTLEMAN? OH COMPOSES SONGS EASILY? If he didn't make up song lyrics through out the book it would be perfect. I'm almost done with it so hopefully I'll be done by the time my new books arrive.

I have started to make myself like tea as well! I've always thought it was really bitter, but if I add some milk and sugar it tastes so good! I've been drinking orange chamomile tea now. It's so smooth and makes me full after a nice big mug. I've already made myself like jalapenos/spicy food in general, so I know I can do it! Actually, my friend took me out to an awesome barbeque place in Fairfield. It was spicy but soooo good! I hope to hang out with him a lot more, he's a pretty chill dude. I will also hopefully be going back down to UCSC soon, and going to Oregon to stay with my boyfriend for a while.

Also back on track to lose weight. I weigh about 145-155 (different scales, don't know which to trust) and I want to get down to at least 120. I think i ca do it! Just a lot of lifestyle changes that are over due in needing to be done.

Also saving up for a place of my own, making new friends and hanging out with old ones. 2011 will be sweet.

seeyalater.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

brushem (x3)

Ah, the dentist:

Always an adventure. In my mouth.
I have sensitive gums already, so scraping them is a nightmare for me. I also have tmj, and my jaw feels unhinged/crooked PLUS I grind and clench when I am stressed, so right now my jaw is always achey. No cavities though, and everything is basically as normal as it could be.

I'm going to stay with my friend for a few days just to get out of the house. I feel like melting into the carpet forever, this place isn't a good environment for me. If this were a perfect world, my boyfriend would let me stay with him at his apartment in Oregon, but this is not a perfect world. Although if i were to go, I would lose basically, everything. All my friends, plus my coworkers. My job is my paradise. I would not choose another first job to have. Everyone I work with is so nice and chill, especially my bosses. I'm not even saying this becasue I'm legally obligated to, but I really, really love my job. :{
There is a jamba juice close to where my boyfriend lives, but they would have to accept me transferring there. If they don't, I'm kinda screwed. Another thing is that I'm probably going to have to quit school to work and raise money enough for both of us to live. I mean, he has his housing and everything covered for the ROTC, but we don't know if that would also include me. Ugh. I wish I could just live in a nice environment and not have to feel like I'm going crazier each and every day with nothing to save me.

PS. I'm trying to post more. :{ 


seeyalater.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

if i were a wealthy girl

I would:

not have to work as much as I do, and therefore not be tired and not feel sick/drained, and not want to write in this.
I would also be able to spend all new years eve with my boyfriend.  :'(
But most importantly I would be able to buy these puppies without feeling guilty.

Hopefully after a couple more paychecks... ;(


Urban1972


These bandage skirts would be so much fun to wear clubbing, or at any party. I love them both so much, I would have to get both colors. Unfortunately they are completely sold out in my size! 


 This mini skirt is all kinda of sexy, plus the top ruffly tiers look as though they'd be good at covering unfortunate tummy bulge. ;) I love the print, this would look great against black tights.


I don't know what it is about this skirt that makes me like it so much. Maybe the office/librarian chicness of it, or the way it looks so flattering and drape-y. I think it looks adorable and I'd love to pair it with a nice cardigan and scarf.



AsianICandy


I really love necklaces like this. If it were perfect, it would be a compass inside, but I love this design as well, plus cute jewelry that is also functional is the best in my opinion. This is so simple yet so elegant, it could be worn with most anything.


 One of the few dresses on the site that would fit me! It's always sad to see something cute and realize it isn't available in your size. However this cute dress is! I love the green color, and the material looks very pretty. It's like a doll's dress. A cute brown belt or tights would be nice with this.



I still need to review all the tights I bought.  :I  Between finals, work, and family issues, I've been completeeeeeeeeeeeely drained. Like, you need to pull over to the side of the road before you break down drained.

As for Christmas, I hope you all had a good one. My boyfriend got me the first season of GLEE which makes him the best person in the world. I also got a whole new luggage set! Hawaii here I come? I wish.

Here's to New Years! Don't get too wasted.

seeyalater.